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CCLXIV – the student and the teacher

03 Saturday Jan 2009

Posted by nelle in Aalon, Jahrae, llhaesa, M'sela J'serhn, N'rellia, Sk'vra

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While the Jamila broadcast captivated the whole of the Arrhazon populace, those who knew either llhaesa or Jahrae took special interest in the unfolding events of another world.

M’sela J’serhn taught music theory at N’rellia Conservatory, and began her 25th year at the prestigious institution weeks before. Through those 25 years of teaching the best and brightest of Arrhazonan students, none ever performed in class and in application quite like llhaesa ahrella t’yaeli.

M’sela thought back to her first encounter with llhaesa. Every year, students are lost and roam the halls looking for their proper class, and usually the lost students are in a state of near panic, fearful of making an initial bad impression with the instructor.

On the first day of llhaesa’s freshman year, she failed to locate M’sela class. M’sela ran through her attendance sheet, and found all present except for one wayward student.

Stepping out the door and into the corridor, M’sela looked toward the right, the shorter expanse, with only a few class doors beyond her own. Seeing nothing, she turned left, and approximately fifty meters in the other direction, she saw a solitary student in one of the glass music booths, happily playing piano, oblivious to the world around her.

M’sela walked to the music booth and rapped upon the glass door, loud enough to draw the student’s attention. Hearing the knock, the student turned her attention outward, and seeing M’sela, a bright smile formed upon her face.

The student – llhaesa – stepped out, and asked how she might help M’sela, prompting a query from M’sela. “Are you llhaesa t’yaeli?” was her simple question.

“Yes, yes I am,” was llhaesa’s simple and casual answer.

“Aren’t you scheduled for class this period, llhaesa?”

“Yes, but the class number on my sheet is incorrect – none of the numbers match the classes on this floor. Rather than disturb each class, I need piano practice time, and endeavoured to make use of my lost time by doing something productive.”

M’sela squelched her inner laughter; she even suppressed a corresponding budding urge to smile, instead pulled on her best teacher-face. “Ms t’yaeli,” M’sela sternly began, “I am the professor of the class you are currently scheduled to be in. And while I appreciate your industriousness, I think your time would best be served making your way four doors down and to your right; you will find a seat in there anxious for you to set upon it for ninety minutes.”

“My apologies, Dr. J’serhn, I shall comply with your request.” Llhaesa turned and proceeded toward the class, then stopped. Turning back toward M’sela she added, “By the way, just before you knocked – my vocal range extended to nine octaves for the first time.” With that comment, llhaesa walked off toward class, leaving M’sela standing there simultaneously mystified and incredulous, not knowing whether llhaesa spoke truth, was being sarcastic, or simply laying claim to being the class exaggerator.

What M’sela learned was that llhaesa was all about the truth, and all about loving music. Where another might retrench and brag, llhaesa simply pushed herself to the limits of achievement, and to this day M’sela was unsure if llhaesa could ever reach a limit on potential.

While that day llhaesa’s comment had to do with vocal range, M’sela – and all of her colleagues – would think up reasons to watch llhaesa practise, such was her level of talent. Even llhaesa’s practise time was worthy spectatorship.

When the faculty advisor list posted, M’sela held her breath, hoping that one on her assignment list was llhaesa. She never told anyone that upon seeing ‘llhaesa t’yaeli on her list, she jumped out of her chair, pumped her arm and fist, whilst screaming ‘yessss!”

That assignment came six weeks into the fall term, and in retrospect, it amazed M’sela that any student could leave an indelible a mark in six weeks.

Not long after, she met with Aalon, N’rellia’s revered and long time Curator, and mentioned llhaesa in the course of their conversation. Curious as a result of M’sela’s high praise, Aalon went out of his way to quietly observe the student, and the next time Aalon and M’sela crossed paths on campus, he called out “you were wrong – she is better than you claim!” and continued walking toward whatever was his destination on that particular day.

Knowing Aalon was the toughest sell on campus in terms of exuberant claims, M’sela knew she would need to work beyond all expectations in order she might sufficiently challenge her young protégé. Hers was not an easy task, for the person she mentored possessed talent that dwarfed her own.

No matter all the superlatives she might toss at llhaesa, all of which she deserved, she also happened to be one of the most willing students in terms of accepting advice and direction, which is probably how she became so damn good.

Not that llhaesa was ready for sainthood during her N’rellia days. M’sela chuckled at the memory of a very drunk llhaesa showing up at her door after she had an argument – more like a minor disagreement – with M’traliel. Lovers at the time, llhaesa felt awful for disagreeing with her friend, and so she made her way to M’sela’s on campus home.

Opening the door and finding llhaesa waiting outside, M’sela invited the student in, and watched her wobble in. Sensing a need for a hot and sobering drink, M’sela put a pot on to boil, while llhaesa made her way to the grand piano that is the focal point of M’sela’s great room.

Llhaesa sat down to play – and promptly fell off the stool, out cold, and not from the fall. M’sela mustered all the strength she possessed to get llhaesa off the floor and into a bed to sleep it off. Twenty centimetres taller, llhaesa was not easy to roust and move, but M’sela managed to accomplish the feat.

The next morning llhaesa became intimate with the bath facilities, emptying out the contents of her stomach in a most unpleasant manner – quite a contrast from the enjoyment gained whilst filling it up the night previous.

In another incident, llhaesa, upset with continuing government sexism and discrimination, engaged in graffiti scrolling with M’traliel, the two marking an equal’s sign on every traffic sign within a kilometre of the N’rellia Campus, front and back. She was fortunate M’sela was the one who spotted her engaged in this handiwork, for had it been most any other, the consequences would have proven most severe.

With llhaesa, M’sela could discuss the matter, explain why she should not engage in these tactics, and llhaesa would take it to heart, learn from her mistake, and move on. In that case, learning meant an unofficial one hundred extra hours of practise, which for llhaesa was no punishment at all.

The funniest incident involved llhaesa’s tormentor throughout college, Sk’vra Kjurha. Envious of llhaesa’s talent, Sk’vra channelled his energy towards sabotage and insults, rather than working toward improving his own ability. M’sela looked back in hindsight, for she knew Sk’vra redeemed himself by giving his life to save Jahrae during the revolution, but back in their college days…

Llhaesa tired of the harassment, and spotted an opportunity to get even in some small measure, with Sk’vra. Taking an examination in writing music, llhaesa knew Sk’vra would glance at her work and copy her answers. So she devised a plan, and wrote everything one note off. At the bottom, she added a key to solve the exam-puzzle by shifting by that one note.

Llhaesa would not explain why, though the answer was apparent in viewing Sk’vra’s entire one note off exam – llhaesa had the explanation key, while Sk’vra listed no such key on his paper. One received a perfect score – and added points for creativity, the other scored nil, along with a stern warning expulsion loomed perilously near.

Now her former student – who in fact could spend the rest of her life teaching M’sela, their roles now reversed – was in trouble so very far away from home. Surely, this Arrkarharan world would learn and understand how precious llhaesa was to all who knew her, to this entire world?

M’sela yearned for the day when Arrkarharan students exchanged with Arrhazon counterparts and sat in her classroom. She would make it a point for them to learn the history of this person and all she had done – the good, the great, and the mischievous.


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♣ raison d’être


Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.

There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.

llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.

Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.

Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.

There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.

Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.

There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.

Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.

The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.

This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.

While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.

Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.

As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.

nelle

♣ say that again?

Aalon:

A.ah.lawn



Aailhra:

A.yul.har.rah



Arrhazon:

Are.ha zawn



Brellian:

Brr.L.lee.an



Chsensera:

Cheh.sen.sear.rah



Cshrehyi:

Sess.ray.hee



Djellrin:

Dee.jell.er.in



E'sphara:

E.ss.far.ruh



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn



Hrilleae:

Ha.rill.ee.ay



I'Isahra M'lensa:

I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah



Jesnsera Sserhara:

Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh



Elsrensia K’avahra:

L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah



Khaehala:

Kay.ha.la



Khahishra:

Ka.ha.heesh.ruh



Kyielra:

Ka.E.I'll.ra



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

lie yay sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say



M'sela J'serhn:

Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen



M'traliel Zralensa:

M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah



Mrevan:

Mm.ruh.van



Njesera:

En.djuh.say.rah



N'rellia:

N.rell.lee.ah



Olterian:

Oh.L.tear.E.an



Saehressa:

Sigh.ah.ress.ah



Serada:

Sir.rah.da



Sjre Jlrasre:

S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er



Sk'vra Kjurha:

Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah



Vreloran:

Vreh.lore.an



Zreltian:

Zzer.L.she.an



♣ people and places

  • 51 Pegasi
  • Aailhra
  • Aalon
  • Addison
  • AGA
  • Alicia Ellenwood
  • Anita
  • arlkhala
  • Arrhazon
  • Arrhazon College
  • Arrhka
  • Arrkarhara
  • Barbara Millwood
  • Bill Green
  • Boston
  • Brellian
  • Casey
  • Chsensera
  • city north
  • Cshrehyi
  • David
  • Djellrin
  • Dolores
  • Dottie Salston
  • Dr Elsrensia K’avahra
  • Dr. Ed Ellsworth
  • Dr. Wrehsx
  • E'sphara
  • Empo
  • Ensign Sserhara
  • Gl'nsiel
  • Henry Smithson
  • Hrilleae
  • I’Isahra M’lensa
  • J'saera
  • Jahrae
  • Jamila Karenga
  • J’luhre Forest Preserve
  • Jesnsera
  • Jredvarha City
  • Keene
  • Khaehala
  • Khahishra
  • Kukaeshra
  • Kyielra
  • Lajxa R’chr
  • llhaesa
  • Lzrehae
  • M'sela J'serhn
  • M'traliel
  • Marcia Paang
  • Mark Cahill
  • Mrevan
  • N'rellia
  • N'rellia Naturally
  • Nenseru Woods
  • Njesera
  • North 41
  • Old City
  • Olterian
  • reiki
  • Ronnie
  • Saehressa
  • Sara Beth
  • SEQ
  • Serada
  • Sjre Jlrasre
  • Sk'vra
  • southeast quadrant
  • Susan Woodward
  • Sylvia Washington
  • Tim
  • V'aesza
  • Vicki
  • Vreloran
  • Y'sre School of Music
  • Zreltian

♣ who’s who

Aalon:

Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music



Aailhra:

Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki



Addison:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter



Arrhazon:

llhaesa & Jahrae home world



Brellian:

Unstable Arrhazonan dictator



Chsensera:

Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae



Cshrehyi T’yaeli:

llhaesa’s brother



Djellrin Khentavra:

Jahrae’s dad



E'sphara:

Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Chief of Government after Brellian



Hrilleae Khentavra:

Jahrae’s mum



Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:

Commander of Equality



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador



Jesnsera Sserhara:

hero of revolution who saves Jahrae



Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:

daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera



Elsrensia K’avahra:

Physician and revolutionary



Khaehala:

Chsensera’s mum



Khahishra:

llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife



Kyielra:

victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

musician and leader of two worlds



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Government employee and discoverer of important documents



M'sela J'serhn:

llhaesa’s college advisor



M'traliel Zralensa:

friend of llhaesa, and first lover



Mrevan:

llhaesa’s dad



Njesera:

Head of government records department



N'rellia:

Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon



Olterian:

Concert promoter



Saehressa:

llhaesa’s mum



Serada:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter



Sjre Jlrasre:

Café owner



Sk'vra Kjurha:

llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution



Vreloran:

government technician who helps llhaesa



Zreltian:

Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government



♣ historical tales

  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008
  • July 2008
  • June 2008

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