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CCXCV – choosing a choice

05 Thursday Feb 2009

Posted by nelle in Addison, arlkhala, Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Boston, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Jahrae, llhaesa, Ronnie, Saehressa, Serada

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The information staring at her over the secure Athenaeum site was quite conclusive, Elsrensia decided after her fourth and final review.

Careful to recheck the details, conservative in her conclusions, the information Elsrensia requested from the researchers at her family’s medical facility on Arrhazon was all she hoped for, with a surprising proposed option.

Ronnie was due in to Manchester-Boston Regional in an hour, after spending the day in Washington at the Department of State. Addison was home, upstairs in her room studying, but Elsrensia wished Ronnie to share this information with Addison, even if Ronnie insisted that Elsrensia was part of their family now.

Elsrensia drove to the airport to pick up Ronnie, though her flight was delayed a half-hour. Fortunately, she was in the main parking garage, and thus her car was secure from towing.

Walking through the airport, she stopped for coffee, finished that, walked a bit more, checked the screens for arrival time, and saw Ronnie’s flight listed as landed. With this information, Elsrensia made her way to the general area of that gate, waiting for the passengers to disembark the flight.

People began trickling out, with a pack of about 20 people following the initial few. Ronnie emerged from the pack, spotted Elsrensia, and casually walked in Elsrensia’s direction, coat in one arm, and carry on bag in her opposite hand.

Ronnie put the bag and coat down, and warmly embraced her nouveau partner, relishing the enthusiastic greeting. Separating reluctantly, Ronnie put on her coat, picked up her bag, and the couple began the walk toward the overhead crossing to the parking garage. “How was your day, Elsren? Mine was rather hectic!”

“It was productive, Ronnie. I managed to obtain information that will surely be of interest to you – as well as Addison and Serada.”

“Oh?”

“As I suspected, the genetic masking used on llhaesa did infiltrate into the genes of the children. As also expected, the masking is flawed, and in fact can easily be corrected right here, with specific instructions provided by my family’s research facility.”

“Is this a safe procedure, Elsren?”

“Absolutely. With llhaesa, a key was implanted in her mind, and that key, in reality was sort of a code that if followed would trigger sequential and rapid destruction of the masking, while with the children, no such code exists as a simple pathway – but the flaws are there. Think of oxidation – llhaesa was fire, or rapid oxidation, and the children’s process would be rust – slow oxidation.

With what I sent for information to the research facility, they decoded the masking, and determined how to remove it without danger to either child.”

“And if the children choose to do this?”

“They will slowly change, much as a child grows during a year. We do not notice them grow three inches, gain corresponding weight, or see their features mature, but they do. So too will this work in such a manner.”

“What is your best guess on changes?”

“You mean based on what I see genetically, with the masking removed?”

“Yes.”

The couple entered the parking garage, turning toward the right, where their car was the third one on the right, in the row along the outer garage wall. Elsrensia used the keyless remote to unlock the car and pop upon the trunk, and Ronnie tossed her bag in, closing the lid.

This done, Elsrensia resumed the conversation. “I predict Addison will be significantly taller than now, and she will have a strong resemblance to llhaesa. Serry will look like you – as she does now, but she too will be tall. Of the two, Addison has the closer match to llhaesa; in fact, she is about as close to llhaesa in that way as llhaesa is to Saehressa.”

They stood at the doors to the car, talking across the top. “Should we do this?”

“Do you mean should we make the decision? I think the girls should, Ronnie, and llhaesa and Jahrae need to be involved as well.”

Ronnie opened the door and climbed in, her action matched by Elsrensia. “But Serry is so young!”

“Yes, she is, but you and I both believe in choice, Ronnie, and if she is uncertain, then we wait. If she is certain – and I think she will understand her choices – then I believe it appropriate to proceed. Think of it this way: the earlier the intervention, the clearer path her unmasked genes have in developing going forward.”

“You’ve convinced me; actually, it is more like you have reassured me, for proceeding is my inclination.

Part of me does not wish to lose the essence of who each of them are, Elsrensia, but I cannot let my selfishness stand in the way of their being who they should be but for some madman’s revenge.”

Elsrensia backed out of the parking spot, and made her way to the ramp downward, descending and rounding the circular slope two flights to the exit. She said nothing until after paying. As they drove away, Elsrensia resumed discussion of the topic.

“That is understandable Ronnie, and it is admirable that you can see the importance of letting them be all they should be, even if that means significant change.”

“We will need to discuss how you would make this change, and we need to explain it openly and clearly to Addison and Serada.”

“Yes, and while you will break the news, I’ll handle the scientific and medical explanations.

Ronnie, I should tell you, I ran simulations today on each child.” Elsrensia mysteriously offered a new tangent as she turned off the access road leaving the airport, and onto Brown Ave, heading for Interstate 293 and home.

“And?”

In five years, Addison will look as much like llhaesa as llhaesa looks like Saehressa. Serry will resemble you, but it will not be to the same extent that Addie resembles llhaesa; and she will have some features that remind one of llhaesa.

Addie will have llhaesa’s long fingers and predisposition to music.

The key here is your genes are unmasked – what they inherited from you – and so those traits are already present and visible. Llhaesa’s genes would go to work on both daughters, and will result in significant change over time.”

“What you seem to be telling me is that llhaesa’s genes will dominate, at least with Addison, and create a stand off in Serada!”

Elsrensia laughed, recognising Ronnie meant the comment facetiously. “You might say that! Seriously, your children will reflect both of you genetically and socially, and what more can a parent expect?

In your family, both of you are exceptionally talented, attractive, and very empathetic, and well, think the fruit falls far from the arlkhala tree?”

“What kind of tree?”

“Oh, sorry! An arlkhala tree is indigenous to Arrhazon. Looked at from afar, the branches seem to form steps that climb to a mutual zenith, with leaves of deep green, and a fruit that is somewhat like your apple, though a bit larger, more sour, and that retains firmness longer.

One of the constellations in our night sky is the Arlkhala Constellation, and interestingly, it plays a historical role in our family.”

“I have a hunch you are about to share a story with me.”

“I am! Not long after we first found Jahrae, she endured intense dreams. In one recurring dream, llhaesa would be associated with that constellation.”

“That is an interesting bit of trivia.”

“Actually, it is more than trivia, Ronnie. The star at the top of the Arlkhala Constellation is Arrkarhara.”

“You… think there is something to that; somehow Jahrae sensed where llhaesa was?”

“I suspect, but cannot prove. There is one more, unrelated thing that this story reminds me to share with you.”

“Is it something new or a story from back then on Arrhazon?”

“New. It appears our family just increased in size by one.”

“Llhaesa is only two months pregnant, so that isn’t what you wished to share. I give up. Explain, please!”

“It seems llhaesa and Saehressa encountered a homeless boy in Boston today, he was thrown out of his home for telling his parents he is gay.”

“Oh geesh – how sad! Let me guess, llhaesa wishes to adopt him, right?”

“Wrong. Saehressa wishes to adopt him.”

“Saehressa!”

“Yes. And the more I think about this, I agree with llhaesa – it makes a whole lot of sense.”

“Why is that?”

“Saehressa is such a loving and caring soul, yet she was without her family – excepting Jahrae – for fifteen years, losing her husband, her son, and her daughter. She has much inside to share, and given her track record with llhaesa, Saehressa is a perfect choice to parent that child!”


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♣ raison d’être


Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.

There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.

llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.

Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.

Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.

There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.

Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.

There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.

Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.

The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.

This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.

While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.

Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.

As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.

nelle

♣ say that again?

Aalon:

A.ah.lawn



Aailhra:

A.yul.har.rah



Arrhazon:

Are.ha zawn



Brellian:

Brr.L.lee.an



Chsensera:

Cheh.sen.sear.rah



Cshrehyi:

Sess.ray.hee



Djellrin:

Dee.jell.er.in



E'sphara:

E.ss.far.ruh



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn



Hrilleae:

Ha.rill.ee.ay



I'Isahra M'lensa:

I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah



Jesnsera Sserhara:

Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh



Elsrensia K’avahra:

L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah



Khaehala:

Kay.ha.la



Khahishra:

Ka.ha.heesh.ruh



Kyielra:

Ka.E.I'll.ra



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

lie yay sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say



M'sela J'serhn:

Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen



M'traliel Zralensa:

M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah



Mrevan:

Mm.ruh.van



Njesera:

En.djuh.say.rah



N'rellia:

N.rell.lee.ah



Olterian:

Oh.L.tear.E.an



Saehressa:

Sigh.ah.ress.ah



Serada:

Sir.rah.da



Sjre Jlrasre:

S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er



Sk'vra Kjurha:

Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah



Vreloran:

Vreh.lore.an



Zreltian:

Zzer.L.she.an



♣ people and places

  • 51 Pegasi
  • Aailhra
  • Aalon
  • Addison
  • AGA
  • Alicia Ellenwood
  • Anita
  • arlkhala
  • Arrhazon
  • Arrhazon College
  • Arrhka
  • Arrkarhara
  • Barbara Millwood
  • Bill Green
  • Boston
  • Brellian
  • Casey
  • Chsensera
  • city north
  • Cshrehyi
  • David
  • Djellrin
  • Dolores
  • Dottie Salston
  • Dr Elsrensia K’avahra
  • Dr. Ed Ellsworth
  • Dr. Wrehsx
  • E'sphara
  • Empo
  • Ensign Sserhara
  • Gl'nsiel
  • Henry Smithson
  • Hrilleae
  • I’Isahra M’lensa
  • J'saera
  • Jahrae
  • Jamila Karenga
  • J’luhre Forest Preserve
  • Jesnsera
  • Jredvarha City
  • Keene
  • Khaehala
  • Khahishra
  • Kukaeshra
  • Kyielra
  • Lajxa R’chr
  • llhaesa
  • Lzrehae
  • M'sela J'serhn
  • M'traliel
  • Marcia Paang
  • Mark Cahill
  • Mrevan
  • N'rellia
  • N'rellia Naturally
  • Nenseru Woods
  • Njesera
  • North 41
  • Old City
  • Olterian
  • reiki
  • Ronnie
  • Saehressa
  • Sara Beth
  • SEQ
  • Serada
  • Sjre Jlrasre
  • Sk'vra
  • southeast quadrant
  • Susan Woodward
  • Sylvia Washington
  • Tim
  • V'aesza
  • Vicki
  • Vreloran
  • Y'sre School of Music
  • Zreltian

♣ who’s who

Aalon:

Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music



Aailhra:

Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki



Addison:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter



Arrhazon:

llhaesa & Jahrae home world



Brellian:

Unstable Arrhazonan dictator



Chsensera:

Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae



Cshrehyi T’yaeli:

llhaesa’s brother



Djellrin Khentavra:

Jahrae’s dad



E'sphara:

Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Chief of Government after Brellian



Hrilleae Khentavra:

Jahrae’s mum



Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:

Commander of Equality



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador



Jesnsera Sserhara:

hero of revolution who saves Jahrae



Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:

daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera



Elsrensia K’avahra:

Physician and revolutionary



Khaehala:

Chsensera’s mum



Khahishra:

llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife



Kyielra:

victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

musician and leader of two worlds



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Government employee and discoverer of important documents



M'sela J'serhn:

llhaesa’s college advisor



M'traliel Zralensa:

friend of llhaesa, and first lover



Mrevan:

llhaesa’s dad



Njesera:

Head of government records department



N'rellia:

Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon



Olterian:

Concert promoter



Saehressa:

llhaesa’s mum



Serada:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter



Sjre Jlrasre:

Café owner



Sk'vra Kjurha:

llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution



Vreloran:

government technician who helps llhaesa



Zreltian:

Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government



♣ historical tales

  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008
  • July 2008
  • June 2008

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