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CCXCIV – every child needs a home

03 Tuesday Feb 2009

Posted by nelle in Casey, llhaesa, Saehressa

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The train rumbled along squealing and screeching tracks, the imperfectly laid and century old pathway signalling its weariness at still having to bear such a weighted burden.

The three linked subway cars that for the moment ran above ground were a third full; having left Sullivan Square with one more stop before the major line crossing intersection at North Station, home of the TD Banknorth Garden.

In the middle car in the joined parade, sitting in the first row of forward facing seating, were llhaesa and Saehressa, mother and daughter venturing forward into a new city with the same old purpose – a mother and daughter day in the city, doing whatever whimsical notion might seduce them during their city-spent day.

The symbolism and the reprising were obvious to both, what with memories of the excursions into Arrhazon City, with Saehressa, the proud mother and proud feminist, escorting her young child into and through the city as if she had equal right to explore its spectaculars or just the plain interesting.

The idea was llhaesa’s, and Saehressa had jumped at the opportunity to spend a day with her daughter, their first jaunt together in two decades.

Choosing conservative methodology, llhaesa drove Ronnie’s SUV – one of two, this one was llhaesa’s as Tim – to Sullivan Square, where they caught the Orange Line into the city, and to their initial destination, Faneuil Hall Marketplace, two stops beyond North Station, at State.

The weather was as one expected two days before Thanksgiving, a holiday with which llhaesa was accustomed, but that was new to the just arrived two months before Saehressa.

This was a new life for her, on a new world with a job, once again teaching music. Saehressa was to start the Monday following Thanksgiving, and even though she had yet to teach a class, she gave serious thought to remaining behind when her family packed up and headed back to Arrhazon, though she knew deep down she could not leave her family, even if the separation was only for eighteen months.

Mother and daughter wore jeans, that style of clothing an Earth original, and while they were de rigueur wear for llhaesa, Saehressa had already come to love them as well.

Both wore outerwear suited to the season, though this day featured bright sunshine. It was still only 8°C, and if out of the sun for any length of time, the cooler air became quite noticeable.

Llhaesa wore a forest green, woollen shell, down vest, with black hooded sweatshirt underneath, a dressed down look that was actually more reflective of who she was inside than the most fashionable wear that she was necessitated to wear the following night at the White House reception.

Saehressa wore a more traditional sleeved coat, mid-thigh length, and herringbone pattern grey wool flared toward the bottom, a coat she claimed as cosily warm.

Finally, Saehressa wore white and royal blue tennies, while llhaesa wore her favourite steel grey hiking boots.

Leaving the subway station, they made their way upward to the exit, heading for Faneuil Hall. Reaching the outlying plaza, the mother and daughter team made their way through the crowd, on into the first building, checking out the various foodstuffs offered, with llhaesa succumbing to the call of a fresh baked and hot pretzel, doused with yellow mustard.

“When I was pregnant with you, my dear daughter, I used to crave s’selhrsa, a baked good that was multi grain yet laden with decadent ingredients stirred in. That pretzel reminds me of it, though it is rather barren of added items!

“I’ve never heard of that before, dear mother! Why am I unable to picture s’selhrsa?

“They were sort of a fad, and by the time you were of an age to remember, no one sold them.

I have to admit that pretzel tempts. May I break off a piece?”

“Here, let me break one of for you!” Llhaesa pulled off one section of the pretzel and handed it to her mum, whose face immediately registered approval. “That is good, ‘essa!”

Llhaesa, her mouth full of pretzel and mustard, uttered, “MmImagree!”

After tasting various items in the Hall, their next stop was Downtown Crossing, which they reached by way of a short jaunt, again on the Orange Line.

There were times llhaesa loved to shop, and with her mother, with memories of her childhood strong, this proved to be such a time.

Llhaesa, thinking ahead, found a store with maternity clothes she actually liked, and decided to buy several items, necessitating two store bags to carry.

Stepping outside the store entryway, llhaesa stood momentarily stunned as a young man scooted off with her purchases and bag carrying her identification, credit cards, and cash. She took off after him, chasing him up the street.

What she did not see was Saehressa hot on her heels, and with their long legs, they eventually closed the distance, llhaesa grabbing the culprit by the back of his sweatshirt, finally tackling him.

Struggling to get away, the suspect writhed about, but llhaesa held fast, subduing him, and finally pulled him to his feet. Getting her first good look at him, she startled at seeing he was likely less than fifteen years of age. “who are you?” llhaesa asked, receiving no answer.

“Well, I am waiting. Who are you? Or should I go get a police officer to help us sort this out?”

With her mum standing by, llhaesa saw the young man’s face shift from defiance to fear. “My name is Casey.”

“OK… Casey, I am curious’ why the need for you to steal maternity clothing?”

“Maternity clothing! Is that what I took?”

“Yes it is, and you were caught by someone who is pregnant, and who is quite unhappy with you right now. You had better explain, and explain in detail, or you will have a date with the law, do you understand?” llhaesa artificially inserted a sternness in her voice that did not exist inside, for something there hinted at a reason that was not at all conducive to the well-being of this child.

Casey lowered his head, his eyes searching the pavement below him, his feet joining in pawing where he looked, as if scratching at something unseen on the cement surface. “I am homeless; my parents threw me out of their house.”

Both llhaesa and Saehressa saw the truth in his expression, and their hearts leaped out of their chests, intangibly embracing the adolescent.

Llhaesa finally spoke, her path clear. “You are no longer homeless, Casey. I would like to return you to your home, but I fear that solves nothing, nor would some foster care programme. You have a choice – come home with us, or I will notify proper authorities, because you should not be living on the streets, especially this time of year!

Why did your parents throw you out?”

“I told them I am gay.”

Emotion welled up inside llhaesa, and she could see her mum was right there with her in this regard. Saehressa spoke next, her heart setting the course she intended to take.

“Casey, how long have you been homeless?”

Saehressa and llhaesa could see him struggle with measurement of time elapsed, and Casey finally guessed “over a year.”

That was enough for Saehressa. “Llhaesa, I have no idea what the protocol is here, but this child cannot live on the streets! I intend to take him home, and he will live with me, until such time as this gets resolved.”

Llhaesa could see the determination in her mother’s eyes, and in truth, had her mother not laid claim to Casey, she was about to. In this case, now that her mum volunteered, llhaesa began to see some intriguing possibilities in this for Saehressa and for the child.

“Casey, this is my mother, Saehressa T’yaeli, and I am llhaesa t’yaeli. Living on the streets, you probably do not know a thing about us-“

“I know who you are,” he suggested, his voice replete with surety.

“OK, who are we then?” Saehressa challenged her would be protégé.

“You are them space people.”

“Space people, eh?” llhaesa felt amused by the reference. “How do you know this?”

“I see the papers at the newsstands, and I read them, too!”

“Would you go home with us, Casey?” Saehressa asked. “You do not have to, and we will not make you, but I do not wish for you to live on the streets. You… can help me, and I… can help you.”

“How can I help you?”

“I would like to get my own place to live, so that llhaesa’s mum Anita can have her home back, and I need someone around to help with the new home, to… take care of things, to watch over it.”

“You would trust me to do that, after I stole your bags?”

“I think what happened is explainable, though not excusable.” Saehressa sincerely replied. A police officer halted her comments, approaching the group of three asking if everything was all right.

“Yes, officer, it is,” llhaesa replied. Why do you ask?”

“Someone reported seeing a purse snatching, and this young man matched the description.”

“It might have looked like that officer, but really, I was dropping one of my bags, and my purse fell. This young man picked it up and brought it over to me.”

The officer looked the group over sceptically, but in the end had no cause to challenge their statement, and so he wished them well and took his leave.

“Wow, you didn’t have to do that for me.”

“No, we didn’t, none of us has to do anything for each other, Casey; but some of us do things for each other out of love, out of caring. Our love and caring is there for you to share, Casey, if you choose to come home with us.”


♣ raison d’être


Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.

There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.

llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.

Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.

Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.

There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.

Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.

There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.

Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.

The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.

This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.

While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.

Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.

As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.

nelle

♣ say that again?

Aalon:

A.ah.lawn



Aailhra:

A.yul.har.rah



Arrhazon:

Are.ha zawn



Brellian:

Brr.L.lee.an



Chsensera:

Cheh.sen.sear.rah



Cshrehyi:

Sess.ray.hee



Djellrin:

Dee.jell.er.in



E'sphara:

E.ss.far.ruh



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn



Hrilleae:

Ha.rill.ee.ay



I'Isahra M'lensa:

I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah



Jesnsera Sserhara:

Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh



Elsrensia K’avahra:

L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah



Khaehala:

Kay.ha.la



Khahishra:

Ka.ha.heesh.ruh



Kyielra:

Ka.E.I'll.ra



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

lie yay sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say



M'sela J'serhn:

Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen



M'traliel Zralensa:

M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah



Mrevan:

Mm.ruh.van



Njesera:

En.djuh.say.rah



N'rellia:

N.rell.lee.ah



Olterian:

Oh.L.tear.E.an



Saehressa:

Sigh.ah.ress.ah



Serada:

Sir.rah.da



Sjre Jlrasre:

S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er



Sk'vra Kjurha:

Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah



Vreloran:

Vreh.lore.an



Zreltian:

Zzer.L.she.an



♣ people and places

  • 51 Pegasi
  • Aailhra
  • Aalon
  • Addison
  • AGA
  • Alicia Ellenwood
  • Anita
  • arlkhala
  • Arrhazon
  • Arrhazon College
  • Arrhka
  • Arrkarhara
  • Barbara Millwood
  • Bill Green
  • Boston
  • Brellian
  • Casey
  • Chsensera
  • city north
  • Cshrehyi
  • David
  • Djellrin
  • Dolores
  • Dottie Salston
  • Dr Elsrensia K’avahra
  • Dr. Ed Ellsworth
  • Dr. Wrehsx
  • E'sphara
  • Empo
  • Ensign Sserhara
  • Gl'nsiel
  • Henry Smithson
  • Hrilleae
  • I’Isahra M’lensa
  • J'saera
  • Jahrae
  • Jamila Karenga
  • J’luhre Forest Preserve
  • Jesnsera
  • Jredvarha City
  • Keene
  • Khaehala
  • Khahishra
  • Kukaeshra
  • Kyielra
  • Lajxa R’chr
  • llhaesa
  • Lzrehae
  • M'sela J'serhn
  • M'traliel
  • Marcia Paang
  • Mark Cahill
  • Mrevan
  • N'rellia
  • N'rellia Naturally
  • Nenseru Woods
  • Njesera
  • North 41
  • Old City
  • Olterian
  • reiki
  • Ronnie
  • Saehressa
  • Sara Beth
  • SEQ
  • Serada
  • Sjre Jlrasre
  • Sk'vra
  • southeast quadrant
  • Susan Woodward
  • Sylvia Washington
  • Tim
  • V'aesza
  • Vicki
  • Vreloran
  • Y'sre School of Music
  • Zreltian

♣ who’s who

Aalon:

Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music



Aailhra:

Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki



Addison:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter



Arrhazon:

llhaesa & Jahrae home world



Brellian:

Unstable Arrhazonan dictator



Chsensera:

Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae



Cshrehyi T’yaeli:

llhaesa’s brother



Djellrin Khentavra:

Jahrae’s dad



E'sphara:

Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Chief of Government after Brellian



Hrilleae Khentavra:

Jahrae’s mum



Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:

Commander of Equality



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador



Jesnsera Sserhara:

hero of revolution who saves Jahrae



Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:

daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera



Elsrensia K’avahra:

Physician and revolutionary



Khaehala:

Chsensera’s mum



Khahishra:

llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife



Kyielra:

victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

musician and leader of two worlds



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Government employee and discoverer of important documents



M'sela J'serhn:

llhaesa’s college advisor



M'traliel Zralensa:

friend of llhaesa, and first lover



Mrevan:

llhaesa’s dad



Njesera:

Head of government records department



N'rellia:

Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon



Olterian:

Concert promoter



Saehressa:

llhaesa’s mum



Serada:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter



Sjre Jlrasre:

Café owner



Sk'vra Kjurha:

llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution



Vreloran:

government technician who helps llhaesa



Zreltian:

Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government



♣ historical tales

  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008
  • July 2008
  • June 2008

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