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  Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.

  There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.

  llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.

  Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.

  Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.

  There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.

  Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.

  There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.

  Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.

  The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.

  This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.

  While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.

  Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.

  As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.

  llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli

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• say that again?

  Aalon:

  A.ah.lawn

  
  
  

  Aailhra:

  A.yul.har.rah

  
  
  

  Arrhazon:

  Are.ha zawn

  
  
  

  Brellian:

  Brr.L.lee.an

  
  
  

  Chsensera:

  Cheh.sen.sear.rah

  
  
  

  Cshrehyi:

  Sess.ray.hee

  
  
  

  Djellrin:

  Dee.jell.er.in

  
  
  

  E'sphara:

  E.ss.far.ruh

  
  
  

  Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

  Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn

  
  
  

  Hrilleae:

  Ha.rill.ee.ay

  
  
  

  I'Isahra M'lensa:

  I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah

  
  
  

  Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

  Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah

  
  
  

  Jesnsera Sserhara:

  Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh

  
  
  

  Elsrensia K’avahra:

  L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah

  
  
  

  Khaehala:

  Kay.ha.la

  
  
  

  Khahishra:

  Ka.ha.heesh.ruh

  
  
  

  Kyielra:

  Ka.E.I'll.ra

  
  
  

  llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

  laa.hay.ess.sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye

  
  
  

  Lzrehae N’seseh:

  Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say

  
  
  

  M'sela J'serhn:

  Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen

  
  
  

  M'traliel Zralensa:

  M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah

  
  
  

  Mrevan:

  Mm.ruh.van

  
  
  

  Njesera:

  En.djuh.say.rah

  
  
  

  N'rellia:

  N.rell.lee.ah

  
  
  

  Olterian:

  Oh.L.tear.E.an

  
  
  

  Saehressa:

  Sigh.ah.ress.ah

  
  
  

  Serada:

  Sir.rah.da

  
  
  

  Sjre Jlrasre:

  S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er

  
  
  

  Sk'vra Kjurha:

  Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah

  
  
  

  Vreloran:

  Vreh.lore.an

  
  
  

  Zreltian:

  Zzer.L.she.an

  
  
  

• people and places

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  • Susan Woodward
  • Sylvia Washington
  • The Highlands Inn
  • Tim
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  • Watershed Regional
  • Y'sre School of Music
  • Zreltian

• who’s who

  Aalon:

  Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music

  
  
  

  Aailhra:

  Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki

  
  
  

  Addison:

  Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter

  
  
  

  Arrhazon:

  llhaesa & Jahrae home world

  
  
  

  Brellian:

  Unstable Arrhazonan dictator

  
  
  

  Chsensera:

  Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae

  
  
  

  Cshrehyi T’yaeli:

  llhaesa’s brother

  
  
  

  Djellrin Khentavra:

  Jahrae’s dad

  
  
  

  E'sphara:

  Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony

  
  
  

  Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

  Chief of Government after Brellian

  
  
  

  Hrilleae Khentavra:

  Jahrae’s mum

  
  
  

  Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:

  Commander of Equality

  
  
  

  Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

  llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador

  
  
  

  Jesnsera Sserhara:

  hero of revolution who saves Jahrae

  
  
  

  Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:

  daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera

  
  
  

  Elsrensia K’avahra:

  Physician and revolutionary

  
  
  

  Khaehala:

  Chsensera’s mum

  
  
  

  Khahishra:

  llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife

  
  
  

  Kyielra:

  victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae

  
  
  

  llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

  musician and leader of two worlds

  
  
  

  Lzrehae N’seseh:

  Government employee and discoverer of important documents

  
  
  

  M'sela J'serhn:

  llhaesa’s college advisor

  
  
  

  M'traliel Zralensa:

  friend of llhaesa, and first lover

  
  
  

  Mrevan:

  llhaesa’s dad

  
  
  

  Njesera:

  Head of government records department

  
  
  

  N'rellia:

  Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon

  
  
  

  Olterian:

  Concert promoter

  
  
  

  Saehressa:

  llhaesa’s mum

  
  
  

  Serada:

  Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter

  
  
  

  Sjre Jlrasre:

  Café owner

  
  
  

  Sk'vra Kjurha:

  llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution

  
  
  

  Vreloran:

  government technician who helps llhaesa

  
  
  

  Zreltian:

  Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government

  
  
  

• 15 recent tales

  • XCVII – dreams and remembrance
  • XCVI – the man who never knew
  • LCV – stirred by the sea part II
  • XCIV – stirred by the sea part I
  • XCIII – declarative adulthood
  • XCII – hostage to the hills part II
  • XCI – hostage to the hills part I
  • XC – revenge of the acoustic guitar
  • LXXXIX – uncommon on the common
  • LXXXVIII – recruiting parents
  • LXXXVII – the ways of fate
  • LXXXVI – may the waters set you free
  • LXXXV – the problem with problems
  • LXXXIV – serry’s choice
  • LXXXIII – multi-generational mischief

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  Worlds Undone

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