The list was short, but the task ahead was especially formidable. Jahrae sat in a sixth floor conference room with the Arrhazonan team about to spend the next two years on Arrkarhara, a team that reported to her and for which she had responsibility. The names under discussion were the usual suspects, nations and groups [...]
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LXXXV – the problem with problems
Posted in Addison, Ahrella T'srha, Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, Khahishra, M'traliel, Miahsara Kensoli, N'rellia, Oluraesa Y’elorha, Ronnie, Serada, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing, writing-inspiration on 6 June, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
LXXXI – coordinated incisiveness
Posted in Addison, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, Ronnie, Saehressa, Serada, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing, writing-inspiration on 2 June, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The lightning, thunder, and heavy rain of mid-afternoon gave way to clearing skies moving in from the northwest, bringing with the brightening a change of air that was noticeably cooler and drier, bereft of much of its earlier humidity. The sun was lower in the sky now, though still a fair distance from the horizon; [...]
LXXX – feeling, knowing, falling
Posted in Addison, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing, writing-inspiration on 1 June, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Almost seven hours after the video call with llhaesa ended, Addison walked in to their home, her hair and clothes soaked through from the sudden onset of an approaching severe thunderstorm. After the school bus left her off at the junction of Celestial Circle and Monterrey Drive, Addie managed to walk all of fifty metres [...]
LXIII – inspirational desperation part I
Posted in Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Gl'nsiel, Jahrae, Khahishra, M'traliel, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing, writing-inspiration on 7 May, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Their faces reflected the stark reality of the moment: slack and drooped from physical and emotional exhaustion, tearful and sombre from hours of overwhelming sadness and worry, occasionally but all too briefly reflecting momentary hope resting on some about to be attempted and soon to fail medical procedure. Elsrensia worked as a staff of one, [...]
LIX – calling out a world
Posted in Addison, Alicia Ellenwood, Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, Khahishra, M'traliel, Oluraesa Y’elorha, Ronnie, Serada, S’salihn, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing, writing-inspiration on 28 April, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Jahrae calmly went about seeing to the food preparation element of the family’s daily early morning start up, acceding to her daughters’ request for only English muffins and fruit. While Jahrae handled food prep, llhaesa was upstairs, tending to bathing and dressing Ahrella, who would shortly head for a stay with her grandmother. Daughters Addison [...]
XLVII – unintended revelation
Posted in Aailhra, Addison, Arrhazon, Arrhazon College, Arrkarhara, Brellian, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, Khahishra, M'traliel, Ronnie, Serada, Tim, llhaesa, reiki, tagged fiction, story telling, literature, feminist fiction, lesbian fiction, feminism, lesbian, writing, online books, eBooks, creative writing, stories, novels, online novels, blog novels, lesbian-novels, books, lesbian books, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, blog fiction, original fiction, fiction writing, online authors, science fiction, lgbt fiction on 9 April, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
A week after Jahrae’s literal chair-shaking interview, llhaesa and Jahrae sat down with their daughters to watch the broadcast finished product on De La Relevancia. Addison and Sérada were with them, spending their night as they continued their alternating home schedule with their other set of parents next door, while Ahrella headed in the opposite [...]
XLIV – unexpected arrival, unexpected bedpartners part II
Posted in Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Chsensera, Djellrin, Ensign Sserhara, Hrilleae, Jahrae, Khaehala, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing on 5 April, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Chsensera sat looking at llhaesa, her anger evident, not quite believing she was in the throes of reality, instead of ensconced in some nightmare that would end on waking. “And if I do not tell my mum of this incident, what then, ‘essa?” “Defiance now, Chsen? You act like a nascent adolescent in the moment, [...]
XLIII – unexpected arrival, unexpected bedpartners part I
Posted in Arrhazon, Arrkarhara, Chsensera, Ensign Sserhara, I’Isahra M’lensa, Jahrae, Khaehala, Khahishra, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing on 3 April, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The easiest aspect of the two day trip to Argentina turned out to be the flight home. After two days of intense but ultimately successful negotiation with the President of Argentina, Deputy Ambassador Jesnsera Sserhara looked forward to going home a day early and unwinding, which in her mind consisted of a night of lovemaking [...]
XXXIII – what she sang, what she said
Posted in 51 Pegasi, Ahrella T'srha, Arrhazon, Arrhka, Arrkarhara, Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Jahrae, Khahishra, London, M'traliel, Ronnie, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian books, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing on 22 March, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
This ‘dance’ as manifestation of our love reminds me of that first day on Jamila Live, pirouetting with Jahrae snuggled tightly in my arms. Unlike on that wonderful day, I planned this lift and dance, and unlike that day, I hold her horizontally, not in an embrace. Jahrae was unaware of my plans for this [...]
XXIV – amalgamation of our blood part III
Posted in Chsensera, Dr Elsrensia K’avahra, Ensign Sserhara, Ibrahim Harare, Jahrae, Jamie Collins, M'traliel, Ronnie, Sabah Fayed, llhaesa, tagged blog fiction, blog novels, books, creative writing, eBooks, feminism, feminist fiction, fiction, fiction writing, lesbian, lesbian fiction, lesbian literature, lesbian stories, lesbian-novels, lgbt fiction, literature, novels, online authors, online books, online novels, original fiction, science fiction, stories, story telling, writing on 10 March, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The first awareness of her return to consciousness was the blinding glare of an overhead light, nearly welding her eyes shut in its annoying downward radiance, confusing in its dominating presence. Disjointed thoughts ran through her mind, which at the speed of electricity worked to reassemble with other thoughts, fashioning into a string. In an [...]
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Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.
There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.
llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.
Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.
Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.
There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.
Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.
There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.
Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.
The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.
This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.
While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.
Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.
As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.
say that again?
Aalon:
A.ah.lawn
Aailhra:
A.yul.har.rah
Arrhazon:
Are.ha zawn
Brellian:
Brr.L.lee.an
Chsensera:
Cheh.sen.sear.rah
Cshrehyi:
Sess.ray.hee
Djellrin:
Dee.jell.er.in
E'sphara:
E.ss.far.ruh
Gl’nsiel Frehsan:
Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn
Hrilleae:
Ha.rill.ee.ay
I'Isahra M'lensa:
I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah
Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:
Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah
Jesnsera Sserhara:
Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh
Elsrensia K’avahra:
L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah
Khaehala:
Kay.ha.la
Khahishra:
Ka.ha.heesh.ruh
Kyielra:
Ka.E.I'll.ra
llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:
laa.hay.ess.sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye
Lzrehae N’seseh:
Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say
M'sela J'serhn:
Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen
M'traliel Zralensa:
M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah
Mrevan:
Mm.ruh.van
Njesera:
En.djuh.say.rah
N'rellia:
N.rell.lee.ah
Olterian:
Oh.L.tear.E.an
Saehressa:
Sigh.ah.ress.ah
Serada:
Sir.rah.da
Sjre Jlrasre:
S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er
Sk'vra Kjurha:
Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah
Vreloran:
Vreh.lore.an
Zreltian:
Zzer.L.she.an
people and places
- 51 Pegasi
- Aailhra
- Aalon
- Addison
- AGA
- Ahrella T'srha
- Alicia Ellenwood
- Anita
- Aolaera T’rlassi
- arlkhala
- Arrhazon
- Arrhazon College
- Arrhka
- Arrkarhara
- Barbara Millwood
- Bill Green
- Boston
- Brellian
- Casey
- Chris Kappel
- Chsensera
- city north
- Cshrehyi
- David
- Djellrin
- Dolores
- Dottie Salston
- Dr Elsrensia K’avahra
- Dr. Ed Ellsworth
- Dr. Wrehsx
- E'sphara
- Empo
- Ensign Sserhara
- Gl'nsiel
- Henry Smithson
- Hrilleae
- Hyassil Lvolamihr
- I’Isahra M’lensa
- Ibrahim Harare
- J'saera
- Jahlaera Oserehi
- Jahrae
- Jamie Collins
- Jamila Karenga
- J’luhre Forest Preserve
- Jesnsera
- Jredvarha City
- Keene
- Kendra Canton
- Khaehala
- Khahishra
- Kukaeshra
- Kyielra
- Lajxa R’chr
- L’juriloe Jsequelha
- Lisa Grennon
- llhaesa
- London
- Lzrehae
- M'sela J'serhn
- M'traliel
- Marcia Paang
- Margaret Okoro Nwosu
- Mark Cahill
- M’korae
- Melissa Kappel
- Miahsara Kensoli
- Mrevan
- N'rellia
- N'rellia Naturally
- Nenseru Woods
- Njesera
- North 41
- Old City
- Olterian
- Oluraesa Y’elorha
- reiki
- Ronnie
- Sabah Fayed
- Saehressa
- Sara Beth
- Sarah Montarra
- Sarah Willingham
- S’salihn
- SEQ
- Serada
- Sjre Jlrasre
- Sk'vra
- Sohrae H’ahlser
- southeast quadrant
- Susan Woodward
- Sylvia Washington
- The Highlands Inn
- Tim
- V'aesza
- Vicki
- Vreloran
- Watershed Regional
- Y'sre School of Music
- Zreltian
who’s who
Aalon:
Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music
Aailhra:
Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki
Addison:
Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter
Arrhazon:
llhaesa & Jahrae home world
Brellian:
Unstable Arrhazonan dictator
Chsensera:
Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae
Cshrehyi T’yaeli:
llhaesa’s brother
Djellrin Khentavra:
Jahrae’s dad
E'sphara:
Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony
Gl’nsiel Frehsan:
Chief of Government after Brellian
Hrilleae Khentavra:
Jahrae’s mum
Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:
Commander of Equality
Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:
llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador
Jesnsera Sserhara:
hero of revolution who saves Jahrae
Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:
daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera
Elsrensia K’avahra:
Physician and revolutionary
Khaehala:
Chsensera’s mum
Khahishra:
llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife
Kyielra:
victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae
llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:
musician and leader of two worlds
Lzrehae N’seseh:
Government employee and discoverer of important documents
M'sela J'serhn:
llhaesa’s college advisor
M'traliel Zralensa:
friend of llhaesa, and first lover
Mrevan:
llhaesa’s dad
Njesera:
Head of government records department
N'rellia:
Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon
Olterian:
Concert promoter
Saehressa:
llhaesa’s mum
Serada:
Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter
Sjre Jlrasre:
Café owner
Sk'vra Kjurha:
llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution
Vreloran:
government technician who helps llhaesa
Zreltian:
Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government
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15 recent tales
- XCVII – dreams and remembrance
- XCVI – the man who never knew
- LCV – stirred by the sea part II
- XCIV – stirred by the sea part I
- XCIII – declarative adulthood
- XCII – hostage to the hills part II
- XCI – hostage to the hills part I
- XC – revenge of the acoustic guitar
- LXXXIX – uncommon on the common
- LXXXVIII – recruiting parents
- LXXXVII – the ways of fate
- LXXXVI – may the waters set you free
- LXXXV – the problem with problems
- LXXXIV – serry’s choice
- LXXXIII – multi-generational mischief
historical tales
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