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07 Sunday Dec 2008

Posted by nelle in Arrhazon, Jahrae, J’luhre Forest Preserve, Jesnsera, Kukaeshra, llhaesa, M'traliel, Old City, Saehressa, SEQ, southeast quadrant

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Arrhazon City was in open rebellion. Fully half the city was in the hands of those in opposition to the government, led by Jahrae, Dr. Elsrensia K’avahra, M’traliel, and Jesnsera.

M’traliel, outside the area when the southeast quadrant sealed itself off, now led the Old City area – the part of the city llhaesa and Jahrae considered home. Once Old City was on board, the barricades to that section of the city in SEQ came down.

In an undisclosed location, Kukaeshra was on the cusp of releasing the now finished documentary on llhaesa ahrella t’yaeli. Well knowing the explosive nature of the contents, it was anticipated that there would be downloads numbering in the billions inside of two days. With all of those views, the rebellious areas would soon have significant company.

At precisely 6 pm, the two-hour documentary began. There were interviews with Saehressa, M’traliel, Hrilleae and Djellrin, and Aalon, the curator of N’rellia when llhaesa attended. Many other interviews were included, people who played some role in llhaesa’s life. Most especially, Jahrae shared her thoughts throughout.

There was extensive concert footage of llhaesa, including her playful teasing of Jahrae at Hrensa, her valedictorian speech and performance, and her full day performance at Nenseru Woods.

Clips of interviews were included, along with video of llhaesa through her young life.

The documentary was a portrait of an extraordinarily gifted child who grew into and embraced an extraordinary life. The full range of a human being showed throughout, the joys of a child, the love of a partner, the endless hours of practice, the satisfaction of achievement.

The film was poignant in parts, uplifting in others, and throughout viewers saw the full range of llhaesa’s personality, vision, and achievements.

One video clip was of six-year-old llhaesa, interviewed and performing for the Y’sre School of Music admittance board. This child handled herself with casual aplomb, completely comfortable in a high-pressure situation, sharing outlook more typical of someone ten years older.

Another showed llhaesa playing on Homecoming Day at her high school, the student body enraptured with her performance.

The interviews of Saehressa and Jahrae were particularly powerful, lamenting the loss of their loved one. Saehressa talked of how llhaesa’s loss was the second child her and Mrevan lost, her loss sapping Mrevan’s will to live, resulting in death once illness fell upon him.

Jahrae shared the range of their life, from vacationing on Overture and hiking in J’luhre Forest, to the teasing interaction and even their one and only disagreement.

Llhaesa’s political views and activism unfolded sequentially and chronologically, establishing how she came to government attention, how the government reacted, and how llhaesa countered their efforts along the way.

Watching the documentary, viewers saw why llhaesa earned the nickname ‘world treasure.’ Interviews with music critics talked of how she was without peer in Arrhazon music history, no matter the genre. Praised was her playing style and ability, singing voice, athleticism, and writing ability. Critics shared an example of each category, and accompanying video matched story to actual event.

Llhaesa’s fingers worked a keyboard, playing a complex piece at a seemingly impossible speed, while her voice soared as superimposed image of a meter indicated the true range. Viewers saw a clip of llhaesa playing with back to keyboard, from on top of a grand piano, and whilst in the midst of a skater’s spin, and finally, a critic cited what he thought was llhaesa’s most impressive writing.

E’sphara shared stories from llhaesa’s two stays at the Artist Colony, while an expert on social services shared an analysis of llhaesa and Jahrae’s various foundations.

The documentary grew tense as it staged a recreation of the raid on the llhaesa – Jahrae flat, leading to llhaesa held as prisoner, and recording the three songs to Jahrae, each played in entirety.

A professor who asked for anonymity appeared, cloaked in darkness, sharing his likely explanation of what happened once the government forces removed llhaesa from the flat. The recreation of this scenario played on screen, with this element accompanied by a new song, this recorded by Jahrae. Llhaesa wrote the song for her planned second release, but never had the chance to record it.

Jahrae felt the song summed up llhaesa’s life and outlook, while giving Jahrae the ability to sing with a voice dripping with the pain of a partner lost. Six minutes in length, the scene was graphic; guards beat llhaesa, striking her repeatedly until she dies. Once dead, guards throw her to the floor, spit on her body, and throw it in a garbage chute.

As guards feed llhaesa’s body into the chute, Jahrae’s voice presses onward in a chant of great angst, a hauntingly beautiful yet surreal sound calling out the visual element as the result of a government gone awry.

The body disappears, guards leave the scene, but a view of the chute door remains as the song reaches its climax.

The screen goes to black, and white text appears giving facts of llhaesa’s life and details of her government entanglements. The facts morph from information on llhaesa into documentation of Brellian’s excesses and murders, his reach for power and abuse of the system.

The facts end, and two images form a split screen: on the left, a wide-grinned llhaesa; on the right a screaming Brellian, a well-chosen image that showed him in a fit of fury.

A half hour after the end of the broadcast, every Athenaeum mirror site providing access to the download stressed to their limits. People poured out of their homes around the capitol district, and around the world.

City after city reported huge crowds beyond their ability to maintain order. Sporadic unruliness also showed in reports, while the crowds chanted for Brellian’s ouster. Signs appeared calling llhaesa a martyr and Brellian a murderer; llhaesa’s image was virtually everywhere.

In the capitol, Arrhazon City, the only city sector bordering the southeast quadrant and not yet joined in the cause was government centre, just to the north – the heart of Brellian’s faux empire.

In areas that still had power, large screens were set up out of doors, reprising the documentary, further stirring their passion for toppling Brellian.

New reports came in from other cities of government forces breaking ranks, running away while stripping off their uniforms.

By midnight, several cities reported ousting the local, Brellian affiliated governments, with provisional leaders appointed to oversee each area. One city found government troops trapped inside part of their base, the munitions building in the hands of rebels.

Learning of this ongoing incident, Jahrae established contact and convinced leaders to commit to non-violent change, else their unthinking and unwarranted action might jeopardise what they achieved to this point.

Kukaeshra’s extensive broadcast team covered the unfolding drama from around the world, image after image of waves of humanity, occasionally a building or vehicle on fire.

At dawn, the southeast quadrant and allies spilled northward, moving slowly but relentlessly across the 10 kilometres toward the government centre, with Jahrae, Jesnsera, and Elsrensia leading the way. Government forces were not visible anywhere, which was cause for concern.

Walking along the thoroughfare now a temporary pedestrian way, Jahrae thought of llhaesa, thought of her loss, of how she was lost, and how what was about to unfold was scant payback.

Llhaesa would be here, Jahrae thought, with me. Yet Jahrae struggled through her thoughts and actions, wondering what llhaesa would do in these circumstances, how she would view each event. In the end, Jahrae hoped that wherever llhaesa might be post death, she looked on with approval.

By the time this mass of people reached Brellian’s government tower around two in the afternoon, the protesting masses would number well over a million people.

There was much still to unfold prior to that time, including an encounter with the most fanatical of government troops. Jahrae sensed their presence, though she knew not where they lurked. For that reason, she ordered the captured armoured vehicles brought to a supporting position, ready to meet any challenge that might come their way.

The documentary of the greater life of llhaesa ahrella t’yaeli was as expected, was as advertised. The final element following in a progression of three llhaesa songs, the people of Arrhazon came to see the horrors perpetrated by their government yet kept from them through the last several years.

Llhaesa’s vision was about to come true, except she was not here to witness the fulfilment of her dream.


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♣ raison d’être


Over the past seven months, writing the individual stories of llhaesa and Jahrae, as well as their common story, has taken a special place in my heart.

There are some elements, those with playful exchanges, or those where discussion is heavier, that grab hold of my emotions, sometimes even grab hold of my thoughts, weighing upon me during the day.

llhaesa’s story has been welling inside of me for some significant time in rough form. The story is a by-product of coping with gender dysphoria, of being a feminist and a lesbian, and dealing with all the issues related to being lgbt through my life, from closet to post-coming out; while finding – or perhaps stumbling - my way through.

Music is the catalyst, a translator of raw sensory information and feelings, that helps me take the cloud forming in my mind and shape it into story. Sometimes this is via the lyrics, other times through the melody, sometimes simply by way of the sound of an individual instrument.

Musical influences come from Delerium; Beth Orton; Dar Williams; Joan Armatrading; Sarah McLachlan; Tori Amos; Natalie Merchant; Heather Nova; Tracy Chapman; Linda Perry; Alanis Morissette; Bruce Springsteen; Brooke White; Roxy Music; and many others.

There is no order to the posting of story elements or in writing them; each is posted randomly in time, of character, of place - much like how we might share stories from our lives with another. There are times when I will string together elements, and that pattern is evident in the rescue of llhaesa and the subsequent reunion.

Most of the novel is told via a narrator; with one exception. Writing llhaesa’s last day from her perspective - what she experiences, what she sees unfold around her, how she views and reacts to these things – seemed more compelling and interesting. I added one final element to this that actually is not of her last day on Arrhazon, but in her coming out here.

There are six posts told from llhaesa’s real time experience. These story elements (in her words I-VI) are the most interesting and fun to write, as well as the most emotionally draining. As I write this, 29 posts remain in book one, and the last ten have proven the most demanding emotionally.

Some of the story involves an element of science fiction, necessary to bridge the connection between the two worlds, the disconnects, the reconnects. It is not my intent to fashion a tale of science fiction, and the parts that touch on it will remain an essential minimum. The true intent is to share a humanist and feminist story, one where two worlds struggle to find their way to gender equality. The main protagonists are lesbian, and we get to see where at least on one world, this is no issue. Our world can have issue with us, and in this story, one gets to watch as both worlds find their way to creating more accepting and equal societies. The next book will find llhaesa facing this issue square on.

The story consists of 300 individual elements, which when collectively read forms a story of book length. As written currently and displayed on the blog, this is a rough draft; changes will likely be made over time to already published elements.

This is Book One, as what follows post 300 will best be framed into its own book. The second will address issues that will be at once interesting and challenging to explore and contemplate - building upon the story told in Book One. Llhaesa, drawing upon idealism, optimism, and an incredible ability to motivate, will tackle issues in ways I believe most all of us in the lesbian community would wish to see unfold in actuality. If nothing else, the story allows us to get lost in fantasy for a while.

While the title is ‘world’s undone,' this is really the life story of and the results triggered by an incredibly talented musician and activist. Llhaesa refuses to sit idly by while gender discrimination harms the women of her world and freedom is lost on one world, paying a terrible price for her effort. When she resurfaces here, now it is our turn to face her challenges to a world resulting from her unrelenting vision and dreams.

Jahrae, while prominent throughout the story, is sort of the unsung hero, the person who grows through the story to become a formidable presence in her own right. This is by design, and her growth is a perfect match to llhaesa, who needs someone to challenge and inspire her to new learning, to new creativity.

As I wrote the story, note that I originally did not plan on having the children parented by Jahrae, Ronnie, and llhaesa. Initially my intent was for friction to build, to show that sometimes we run into difficulty seeing eye to eye with our spouses. In the end, I could not do this, for my idealism and optimism, of trying to craft something as it should be, got in the way.

nelle

♣ say that again?

Aalon:

A.ah.lawn



Aailhra:

A.yul.har.rah



Arrhazon:

Are.ha zawn



Brellian:

Brr.L.lee.an



Chsensera:

Cheh.sen.sear.rah



Cshrehyi:

Sess.ray.hee



Djellrin:

Dee.jell.er.in



E'sphara:

E.ss.far.ruh



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Jellen.sheel Fray.shawn



Hrilleae:

Ha.rill.ee.ay



I'Isahra M'lensa:

I.ih.sah.rah Mah.len.sah



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

Ja.ha.ray Teh.share.ahh Ka.hen.tahv.rah



Jesnsera Sserhara:

Ja.ess.en.sear.ah Say.sear.ahh



Elsrensia K’avahra:

L.sir.rent.sha Kah.hah.vair.ah



Khaehala:

Kay.ha.la



Khahishra:

Ka.ha.heesh.ruh



Kyielra:

Ka.E.I'll.ra



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

lie yay sah are.ha.rell.la tay.lye



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Lah.zer.ra.hay N.sha.say



M'sela J'serhn:

Mah.sell.ahh Jay.sehr.hen



M'traliel Zralensa:

M.tra.lee.ell Zee.ra.len.sah



Mrevan:

Mm.ruh.van



Njesera:

En.djuh.say.rah



N'rellia:

N.rell.lee.ah



Olterian:

Oh.L.tear.E.an



Saehressa:

Sigh.ah.ress.ah



Serada:

Sir.rah.da



Sjre Jlrasre:

S.jer.ray Jas.sell.rass.er



Sk'vra Kjurha:

Skeh.var.rah Kah.jour.rah



Vreloran:

Vreh.lore.an



Zreltian:

Zzer.L.she.an



♣ people and places

  • 51 Pegasi
  • Aailhra
  • Aalon
  • Addison
  • AGA
  • Alicia Ellenwood
  • Anita
  • arlkhala
  • Arrhazon
  • Arrhazon College
  • Arrhka
  • Arrkarhara
  • Barbara Millwood
  • Bill Green
  • Boston
  • Brellian
  • Casey
  • Chsensera
  • city north
  • Cshrehyi
  • David
  • Djellrin
  • Dolores
  • Dottie Salston
  • Dr Elsrensia K’avahra
  • Dr. Ed Ellsworth
  • Dr. Wrehsx
  • E'sphara
  • Empo
  • Ensign Sserhara
  • Gl'nsiel
  • Henry Smithson
  • Hrilleae
  • I’Isahra M’lensa
  • J'saera
  • Jahrae
  • Jamila Karenga
  • J’luhre Forest Preserve
  • Jesnsera
  • Jredvarha City
  • Keene
  • Khaehala
  • Khahishra
  • Kukaeshra
  • Kyielra
  • Lajxa R’chr
  • llhaesa
  • Lzrehae
  • M'sela J'serhn
  • M'traliel
  • Marcia Paang
  • Mark Cahill
  • Mrevan
  • N'rellia
  • N'rellia Naturally
  • Nenseru Woods
  • Njesera
  • North 41
  • Old City
  • Olterian
  • reiki
  • Ronnie
  • Saehressa
  • Sara Beth
  • SEQ
  • Serada
  • Sjre Jlrasre
  • Sk'vra
  • southeast quadrant
  • Susan Woodward
  • Sylvia Washington
  • Tim
  • V'aesza
  • Vicki
  • Vreloran
  • Y'sre School of Music
  • Zreltian

♣ who’s who

Aalon:

Chief Curator of N’rellia Conservatory of Music



Aailhra:

Arrhazonan equivalent to Reiki



Addison:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s eldest daughter



Arrhazon:

llhaesa & Jahrae home world



Brellian:

Unstable Arrhazonan dictator



Chsensera:

Child friend of llhaesa and Jahrae



Cshrehyi T’yaeli:

llhaesa’s brother



Djellrin Khentavra:

Jahrae’s dad



E'sphara:

Owner of E’sphara Artist Colony



Gl’nsiel Frehsan:

Chief of Government after Brellian



Hrilleae Khentavra:

Jahrae’s mum



Admiral I'Isahra M'lensa:

Commander of Equality



Jahrae T'srha Khentavra:

llhaesa’s wife, and Ambassador



Jesnsera Sserhara:

hero of revolution who saves Jahrae



Ensign Jesnsera Sserhara:

daughter of Jahrae’s friend & wife of Chsensera



Elsrensia K’avahra:

Physician and revolutionary



Khaehala:

Chsensera’s mum



Khahishra:

llhaesa’s college roommate and M’traliel’s wife



Kyielra:

victim of murder, witnessed by young Jahrae



llhaesa ahrella t'yaeli:

musician and leader of two worlds



Lzrehae N’seseh:

Government employee and discoverer of important documents



M'sela J'serhn:

llhaesa’s college advisor



M'traliel Zralensa:

friend of llhaesa, and first lover



Mrevan:

llhaesa’s dad



Njesera:

Head of government records department



N'rellia:

Llhaesa’s college and most prestigious school on Arrhazon



Olterian:

Concert promoter



Saehressa:

llhaesa’s mum



Serada:

Ronnie and llhaesa’s youngest daughter



Sjre Jlrasre:

Café owner



Sk'vra Kjurha:

llhaesa nemesis and future hero of revolution



Vreloran:

government technician who helps llhaesa



Zreltian:

Former Arrhazonan Chief of Government



♣ historical tales

  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008
  • July 2008
  • June 2008

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